I got my rejection from Rhode Island School of Design today just as I was on my way out the door to the second interview at WaterFire Providence. . . The RISD job was MINE. All my life I've wanted to work at RISD. I am sad, angry, confused, faithless, and hopeless tonight. I had to stop myself from crying while driving down Route 146 with the AC on full blast so I didn't look like a strawberry when I got to the interview. I cried when I got home - until my face hurt and my stomach ached. If I had a wiffle bat and a bean bag chair, I would have gone at it hard. For much of my life I have believed that if you worked hard, were kind to others, gave to those less fortunate, loved animals and nature, practiced good hygiene, had good manners and talked to God on a regular basis it would pay off, you know? Okay, not really. However, all criteria has now been erased. Life doesn't make sense - again. I've been working so hard to improve myself from the inside out. I look better, feel better and have worked to become aware and more conscious making each task sacred. I am grateful for everything I have every day. All bets are off now. I don't know what to believe in anymore. I don't know what to think about. I don't know what direction to go in. I'm sinking into darkness again. I feel betrayed.
That was today. Tomorrow I start over.
Call the person at RISD and thank them. Thank them for getting in touch with you when you know their time is so busy. Ask them for suggestions. Ask them for any helpful information and to please keep you in mind in the future and that you look forward to working with them. You said you were simply greatful for the opportunity to interview. What happened to that? YOU had an interview at RISD? How many people can say that? You will get a job and it may or may not be amazing. Breathe. You may or may not stay in Rhode Island. Breathe. You had an interview at RISD. Breathe. You have children and friends who love you. Breathe. You are talented, amazing, funny, brilliant, sexy and loving. Breathe. And you will find your way.
ReplyDeleteI actually got the rejection by calling them. I did thank her and the search committee. I also asked if she had recommendations for other positions. She was very helpful, and very complementary. I asked her if she was willing to be candid and tell what the chosen candidate had over me. She appreciated my question and said she'd like some time to think about it. Yes, I am grateful. I am tired of being patient, tired of praying, tired of doing cover letters and tired of being so dependent on others. I will get over it all and keep going. Thank you soooo much for keeping the encouragement flowing. Hugs.
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