Friday, March 02, 2007
Monday, February 26, 2007
Starting Now
Gathering my strength for the journey. Starting the packing tomorrow. Three more days of classroom visits in the Grow Up Great project this week. Hope to stay connected to it until the end of the school year and come back for the time of sharing event.I'm thinking that the core of me understands what is coming up as a major life change far better than my heart or my brain do. That doesn't seem to make sense, but I can feel the foundation of myself slipping away from underneath me. Darkness. That probably doesn't make sense either, but I can feel it. As much as life in this current household has come to a crossroads and needs desperately to change - there are things I will miss. But it is time. I can't turn back from this road.
Sunday, February 25, 2007
Art Supplies
As part of my process in being with Mother as she goes through her treatment, I am bringing some basic art supplies with me. Journal, sketch pad, acrylics, brushes, pencils. This is critical to the process - mine and hers. I will use art as a repository and work space for the emotions and thoughts I will be experiencing for those 6 weeks or more.It is important that I do not step out of the caretaker role to the 12-year old daughter role. I know things Mother will say and do will be triggers for me to snap back and surrender to the "yes-go-ahead-and-make-me-feel-less-than-perfect" socially cast out 12-year old . My goal is to put those reactions into my art work rather than lashing back at her.
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